Tuesday 15 May 2012

4vr wnrs ;)

she was born when he was eight
but they was meant to be by faith
he start talking when she was quite
she start walking and he start to hike
each start waking in different bathes
each got there share of stumble and crashes
they both got to see they dreams turn to ashes
but faith was saving them
the best for the last
the winners was forever
in love and together
they fall deep in love so peaceful and fast
they swap away the stumbles that hanged on there pasts
there puzzle was completed
they wont be defeated
together and forever
winners more than ever





Tuesday 29 November 2011

bi bi

dear.. broken angel

if words can make u feel me only then i could talk
if tears will make u see me then i'll crak up nd cry
if beeing neer u will make u happy then ur arms will be my sky
but some how i konw it's no use
for some reason with u i cant cry
with u all my words come up as a lie
with u i only wish to run as far as i can

but for you i'd walk hundred mile
for you i'll change the whole word just to see you smile
for you i'v blinded my self to  keep you out of sight 
 and for you i'll set a whol new dreams
deams where i'm not gona be in it
i'll make a brand new rules
to not hurt u any more
to love u unselfishly nd let u go :)




Tuesday 18 October 2011

the right kind of love...


there is an note book that's to hard to read
but when i look i get flsh back from the first time i've seen it

there's was as sad look that you covered with a smile
and with a scared heart i wished you'll just look through my eyes

but now another chapter has gone by .. another tear drops shattered goodbye
and it's time now to move on ...

there's was an old dream that we both were dreaming
but from where we stand it's obvious we slept far from where we were heading

but now a new dreams is coming true a new rods we'll have to go through
and i's time to be strong .. and even though it's easy

we know the right kind of love is the love that lets go


Wednesday 17 August 2011

my worst fear



i tried to cope with all the lies that we've been living
and you r the only one that got me through
i looked a way from all the chances that we've been missing
but they chase me every where i go
i had to start by leaving all the things I've been loving
and the only thing that left was u
and u finally gave me one good reason not to leave
but staying here is my worst fear




Monday 4 July 2011

zombie


get some fresh Yong souls full of life and hope
got nothing to hold on to but hope
take away there families take away there dreams
they will still have hope
but unfortunately that wasn't gud enough to satisfy your evil bathetic ambition
you even striped them from the last straw

you gave them the pest opportunity to maximize that hope they got
they dreams gets bigger
the life's tasted better
and just when they bush they best to get back on track to drag down they log waited dreams
you slept it away
you smashed it right in front of them
you braked they hope soul drams with there own hands

you create a soulless person
a walking disaster that you 've never dreamed of creating such a master piece of distraction

you striped them from the last straw they was hanging on
you striped them from all sort of humanity
you've created a jungle
and opened the cages open wide
so your master piece of well made monsters will destroy every living soul left in this crabby world.

no wonder that astronomers predicted 2012 to be the end of the world
the world will end when humans stop being humans nd they did ! .
all the humans remains r now dead
all the kind pure souls god rested there souls
and still counting the good once
until all that left in this jungle r human left overs

so from now on just as am waiting to die and wishing to be lucky enough not to see more than i already saw
cus those who had died r lucky not to see what the world has become
and my only wish to join them as soon as possible
cuz now i'm hoples dreamless lifeless
just a waking dead waiting to bee buried


Thursday 15 July 2010

i rly luv u ;)






it's like a puzzle and it's not yet completed.
and if u looked closer u'll see the missing pieces.
making a big hole in ma littel perfect life.
guess it's not perfect after all
or maybe my puzzle never meant to be completed
should i keep lookin for u
or stop lookin and let u go
cuz even if i did find u ,,, and get that missin pieces
that will make abigger hole in urs
and that's the one thing i cant do
that why i chose to lose u
so u get much more space to complete ur own
without having someone else holdin u back
i chose to be as far as i can
i chose to save u this pain
i chose not to be the only one who cares for u
i chose to let u be free
and i konw that u'll find some one new
some one who cares rof u but not as much as i DO :)





Sunday 11 July 2010

living hell


Wake up in the morning
Get the early warning
The house is actually burning
Wash ma face and hide for a while
Hear the knocking in my room door like if it war world nine
Hid in ma bed and cover ma head
The door opened and some one comes in
Screaming and yelling
bitshing about some thing that's missing
But for me it's more like a singing
And there is a crack in the record that's keep returning
My whole life collapse and my head spinning
I leave my bed and take my place in yelling
And when we finish this seen
I go to hide again
Drowning my self in regret and remorse
I've said it all to heir faces
Except for the truth
I could never spill it out
Get the second warning
This time it's form my little sis
She's calling names and joking
Like nothing have yet spooking


Spent the whole night pretending that I'm alive
Don't care where my hed as long as it's not here
Go to the store and get the stuff the need
And when I come home
I spend some time to bleed
Before I go to hide once more
Try to make some noise so they'll think that I'm still alive
bathetic cause no one cares


cry till I sleep
until I heard the little kid telling me that one of them is died
I smiled and go to bed
It's weird cause I have no regret
I did what she just said
I proved that I'm not their little kid

And then I wake up
And I'm feeling all their pain
I look in the mirror
My eyes are crying again
They are red..!!
My wrist are bleeding like a river
And the floor covered with blood
And now I'm realizing what I've done
I only wishing that my sis wont come
Coz if she did she'll be stunned
I don't want here to get in trouble
Coz some one will clean up their mess
And It's not me this time
It's my little sis

bla bla

It's not supposed to feel like heaven but it shouldn't be a living hell!!
Only cuz we're not died yet .. Are we?

It's like a bitter sweet kind of pain.. A heaven hell place
A good bad feeling.. Aright bad thing to do !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

what's pain


Pain is the word I didn't even know what it was
Now I see it feel it every where
It's that sense of disgrace
It's that triple feeling that you can't erase
It's a nightmare you'll have to face
And if you tried to get out you'll find it just right behind
Like it was some kind of race
You'll try to fight it or hid it but it will always find it place


get out


What the hell is wrong with you.. I'll scream it out so loud to you
The past wont last so face what's new
Its' pad its sucks but baby its true
And it's the only thing we'll ever knew
So suck it up and move on to
I have no time to feel for you
To hold your hands and make it through
And shear up little we've seen it all
What's left is more and you'll be much better than we been before

i love you.. i don't


I miss you when he's not here
I love you when his love disappear
I want him but you're to dear
I loved hem but then goes fear
And losing you that's one thing I can't bear
I'm so lost and so scared
Witch one to lose and witch one to hurt
I wish I could get out of this miss
Cuz you where the one I want
Well that's what I guessed
But there was nothing that u could've said
And you never get what I meant
I've said it once or twice
But you never felt
So I let go of it

this time for sure

dreaming




Once up on the time there was a little kid
With dreams so bright and the biggest heart and mind
She lived her life to realize
That for so long she was blind
And now she's facing the cold world that they hide
And now she wishes she was still blind

They blamed her for being so kind
They blamed her for doing what's right
They blamed her so hard that's why she always hid
The truth and kept it inside
Most of the times she's drowning in her own thoughts
This thought's that no human ever cared to know
Wondering if what she wants is far
Then she realize that her dreams is just a stare
She wont reach it cuz it just to far
But she figure out a way to be there where you are
She closed her eyes and whispered you name
And there you are looking the same
Some times it's the only thing that keeps her alive
Some times it's what's makes her fight
She may seem sweet
But deep inside she just don't give adman
Cuz all that she want is to sleep once more
This time she wishes it will be for too long

i lie


Drawing in your dreams
Nothing like it seams
The truth is just a lie
A way to get you by
A reason not to cry
To live and wait to die
It's scary enough to cry
It's killing me to watch you die
To be near and far away
To be blind and yet I stair
And it's so easy to lie
I lie to my self not to cry
Cuz it's just a day I'll pass by

Saturday 10 July 2010

plz :S 4gv me :S:S:S:S:S


It's not like I was gonna fall for you
It's not like I'm gonna ever love you
It's just that you were always there!!
You were always the only one who care
Maybe too much for me to pair

For to long I took you for granted
And used to get what I wanted
And now I'm picking what I've planted
A died rose so sick of standing
So sick of being took for granted

I was never sorry for hurting you
Although I had no idea what I was doing to you
I was so blind and didn't have a clue
Thought it's enough to be honest with you
But that wasn't the truth
Coz I was never honest to me or to you
I kept lying to myself and wished you'll believe it to
But to soon you broke down
And that's when I broke your heart in tow
And that's when I realized that I'm just a fool
That's why I'm crying that's why each day fells like ding
Cant's say I miss you can't say I'm sorry cant say I hate you
Coz that's would be lying

One day I promised you that I'll never break your heart
Now I did it and it fell so hard
Wished that nightmare will never come true
But I'm gonna face it any way cuz there is no one ells to blame
One word you say that day ((you know you killed me and for that I wish you'll pay))
Felt like yester day
When we were just kids and all we do is laugh and play
And now we grew up to see what our life turns to be
Why our hearts shouldn’t be free

Any way it's my time to pay
I hurted you this time to deep
And I dun want you to hear me weep
Coz hurting you hearted me much deeper

Thursday 19 March 2009

msg


U gave me the chance to know myself better...
and u know wt??.. i realized that...I Never really loved u the way i thought i did
and because of wt happened u may have just saved the both of us......
so nw , i really don't mind if i can't tell u the words i coudn't say before...
because nw ,, there's no point in doing so..

...goodbye...

Saturday 24 January 2009

I don't hate ....

i hate the way u look at me
and the way u talk to me like i'm little kid
i hate the way u lie to me but yet u think everything will be okay
i hate the waly u always blow me off and think we can still be close
i hate that ur blind to the fact that u hurt us so bad inside
the turn around and put the blame on us..!!
i hate the way u yell at me and make me feel the size of a fly
i hate the way u make me feel like shit and at nights i have to cry
i hate the way u think every thing is goin to be okay that every thing will be all right
but at nights i pray that life some day might be better

so i dun hate u ........
I hate that he's hurtful and mean
I hate that he screams and makes me cry
I hate that he thinks money is all
I hate that he can't lisen and he's always right
I hate that he's negative and there's always something wrong in his mind

Monday 19 January 2009

i miss u (blink 189)



Hello there, the angel from my nightmare

The shadow in the background of the morgue

The unsuspecting victim of darkness in the valley

We can live like Jack and Sally

if we want

Where you can always find me
Where are you and I'm so sorry

I cannot sleep I cannot dream tonight

I need somebody and always

This sick strange darkness

Comes creeping on so haunting every time

And as I stared I counted

Webs from all the spiders

Catching things and eating their insides

Like indecision to call you

and hear your voice of treason

Will you come home and stop this pain tonight

Stop this pain tonight

Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head
(I miss you, I miss you)

i wanna grow old with u


Another day Without your smile

Another day just passes by

But now I know How much it means

For you to stay

Right here with me


The time we spent apart will make our love grow stronger

But it hurt so bad I can't take it any longer

I wanna grow old with you

I wanna die lying in your arms

I wanna grow old with you

I wanna be looking in your eyes

I wanna be there for you

Sharing everything you do

I wanna grow old with you


A thousand miles between us now

It causes me to wonder how

Our love tonight remains so strong

It makes our risk right all along